The Sarah Project: Day 8 (357 to Go!)

Hummingbird

I watch it float seemlessly above me,
I see it flap so hard the wings meld together,
Could I catch it, if I tried harder?
So busy it eludes me.

Statsis - I don't move.
Tears because I can't touch it.
Terror because its unreachable.
Grasping, reaching, screaming,
I wear myself out..
I can't do anything else.

I should though. I should move.
I need to get home, to be safe.
Lonliness prevents me.
I want to hold it; I want to be held by it.

Oh, how I desire to fall into you!
Little bird, be big for me now,
I'm crying - wipe the tears.

I'm strong, my best friend says.
I'm STRONG.
Remember when you were so strong?
I feel so weak.

I succeed, I step forward, I move on.
I forget lonliness.

But this time, the little hummingbird follows me.

~Sarah

We measure strength in different ways. We love in different ways. We need the same things.
Carry on. You can hold yourself. You can hold yourself up.