I've had a lot of enlightening experiences in the last twenty four hours.
I met a stranger online through Omegle. I don't know who he is, but I know who he was to me. We talked for several hours. He started out as a creeper and then it turned into a lovely conversation. He was lonely, but not in the traditional way. He was heart-broken. At the end of it all, we said goodbye and both paused. He said he loved me and logged off.
I haven't felt like someone knew me, knew how I was and felt, in such a very long time. He did. For that I'm thankful. Thank you Stranger. I'm going to eat some tortas for you.
A second thing - I talked to my mom for a lengthy time yesterday. My mom is my best friend. I know that's weird but she is what keeps me grounded in life. Without her I wouldn't be here - in so many ways. We talked about how I feel about my dropping grades, my father, selfishness, depression, and the need to get away. And love. We talked a lot about love. If you think that I tell you personal details from my life, you're wrong. My mom is the only one who truly hears the personal stuff, or well, most of it. This blog gets just a little sliverous fraction.
And on that note, I have class and I'm hungry.
Sincerely,
Sarah
do you know why you feel that that person online knows you? it's because you didnt hide from him. there was no reason to. you would never hear from him again, he would never see you or judge you. you told him the truth and he told you the truth for that same reason. the less you hide of yourself the more we can see and know. the more you hide the more alone you are.
ReplyDeleteTrue. But just because I show myself, doesn't mean you will accept it. Which would make me entirely alone. However if you are one of the Fear Five you probably already know me, I haven't been scared to show myself to you. Except for maybe my Christianity and a few other things.
ReplyDelete*And depending which one you are.
ReplyDeletewhich one i am...
ReplyDeleteOn an unrelated note, you skipped Day 17. Just trying to keep you from cheating.
ReplyDeleteBilly, I actual wrote a Day 17, and didn't publish it, because it shouldn't be on the internets. However, I will change the Days to reflect a lack of that post.
ReplyDeleteNo one cheats at their own game. ;)
haha Billy is like the bloggerfairy. he keepeth tabs on you. Sarah...please...no internet boys I beg of you. I'm on my knees (you can't see it but I am) too many have been lost down that dark path. Real people are wonderful
ReplyDeleteI love Casey and I'm not giving him up for anything. Don't worry.
ReplyDeleteSarah