Have you ever know something was going to happen, but you didn't really believe it? Then that something does happen and you can only respond with pure shock. Well, that happened to me today.
Last semester I went through a difficult time trying to get out of a bad living situation. My grades unfortunately suffered and, combined with a very difficult school schedule, I did not come out unscathed. My GPA for the semester was a 3.47 and my credit hours totaled 14 (I had to drop a class). This looks awesome considering everything, but not exactly awesome to my university, which requires a 3.50 GPA and 15 credit hours each semester to consider me worthy enough to fund.
Thus I lost my scholarship - at least for now. I'm going to appeal and petition and fight, but as of right now the official record says CANCELLED (in all caps - this is verbatum) and I feel as though someone has stamped that phrase in red over my future plans.
A lack of scholarship means I will be living at home with my parents through the year. This is not exactly what I wanted, especially when I won't be saving any money - I'll just be working with what I've got. Regardless, this situation is 1000 times better than the last.
And did I mention my family might be moving - to a house they've decided to buy, only continginet on the sale of our house by September 1st. Who knows really where we'll be or when. All I know is that my stuff is still in storage and I miss my sweet smelling candles and my printer and my mugs and, well, you get the picture.
Going through a tough time,
Sarah
I love you, Sarah, and if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you. I've lost my scholarship, too because of a rough semester. I know how you feel, and just know that I am always here for you.
ReplyDeleteI love you. I'm in town. Let's get together.
Krista
Since you obviously think you know me you should sign your comments or keep them to yourself as I gaurentee that you dont know the half of it. You probably have half a story that you dont give a enough care about to actually talk to me about. I have more than a right to complain not only because this is MY blog [no one forced you to read it] but also because I was put through uneccessary hell last semester. I didnt deserve to be slandered, name called, threatened, or have things taken from me. Get your facts first. Oh and shut up. Just because someone doesnt rattle off about what happened to them doesnt mean they cant sum up their experience with one complaint in one line. If Im wrong youre welcome to man-up and sign your response because you obviously know more about my life than I do.
ReplyDeleteSarah, I'm going to stay Anonymous. Why? Because you can not take any criticism, what-so-ever. People who do try to say, "Sarah, I think this is maybe where you're wrong" (About pretty much ANYTHING) - are officially blacklisted and I'd rather keep you as a friend. I've heard the story, from your mouth even, and I'm not saying you deserved it I'm saying you need to move on with your life.
ReplyDeletePoint A - I have moved on with my life. This post is primarily about my emotion regarding my loss of scholarship, something related but completely different. There are also many other things in my life going on - I don't write everything down, it doesn't mean that what is here consumes me or is an accurate respresentation of my life as a whole.
ReplyDeletePoint B - I have told the whole story to three people in my life, one which is sitting next to me, and the other two whom I have verified are not you - so maybe you have no idea what you are actually talking about. I know that you don't have all the facts. I have never, and probably will never, get a chance to speak my peace. I'm past that now. This post gave me a chance to a least voice how I felt. It is the first place it has been safe to do that in public (without lawyer disapproval).
Point C - Anonymous people are not friends. They are random internet people stirring the pot. People whom speak their minds openly are friends. I would never blacklist someone for doing that. The only person I would blacklist would be someone whom threatened me. And I'll admidt I have blacklisted someone for doing that.
Point D - Your original post was not a criticism. It was an opinion followed by a directive (command).
Sarah