The Sarah Project: 31

I love tea. Looseleaf tea, bagged tea, hot tea, cold tea. I <3 tea.

Life is CRAZY.

Tea is saving me.

School, family, friends, boyfriend, holidays, headaches, movies, music. These things dominate my life.

I must go.

Goodnight.

Love,
Sarah

The Sarah Project: Day 30 Depressed Doctor Sarah

It's been a hell of a week. Mostly fun, but exhausting. I made $330 at a bake sale for the Biology Undergraduate Society. The bake sale was super successful, but I was up half the week baking until very late in the night. I actually went to bed one night and left the last batch of cookies in the oven - its fair to say that I've never seen that much smoke in one place ever. Our smoke alarm doesn't work. Terrible way to find out. Luckily, no harm was done. I didn't burn the apartment down.

On this note, I haven't written this past week; I just haven't had time. It also turns out that I'm having another "down" week. Well, a very very down day today. I meant to get stuff done - but I'm just glad that I got out of bed and ate. I also watched like 8 hours of T.V. Oh Goodness. I think I'll tell you all more about the "down" part of me when I'm more ready.

In other news, my heart goes out to a dear friend who's mother past away last weekend. You know who you are, and you know that I am here for you. Always.

Also, I have decided that I want to be a pharmacist. I'm sure this time. So, the plan is to get my Bachelor's in Biology and Math, while finishing the pharmacy prerequisites, and applying Fall 2012 to the Doctorate program. This time it feels right. I'm happy but also a little daunted by the work load. However, by the time I am  26 years old, I will have my PhD in Pharmacy. Doctor Sarah. :-)  At least, hopefully. We'll see won't we?

This also means, that I'm probably going to stay in New Mexico through the next six years. I never thought I'd stay here so long. But I'm not only finding out who I am, but who I want to be. I don't want to run away anymore. Its not an option. And then there's Casey. Adorable, sweet, caring Casey. He isn't afraid of talking about the future. Like he puts it - "I'm not sure where this is going or what the future will bring, but I can see it working out. So talking about the future doesn't scare me or bother me." He is one of the greatest things to happen to me. If we break up, I'll just be happy that I know that there are decent men in the world. He has never misled me, he has never lied to me, and he has never promised me anything. He wants to know me. Not what he thinks I am, or what he wants me to be, but who and what I really am.  We've been together for more than six months now, and whatever I thought about love - my perceptions have changed 100%.  This relationship is different than anything I've experienced before. While I'm not making any future plans in the love department, I am making all my plans based on me, now, and what I want. And I have support.

Thank you.

Sincerely,
Sarah

The Sarah Project Day 29: Muh

I'm lonely in the friends way, eating chicken, a box of cookies, and drinking juice working on an assignment due at midnight.

Feeling Sad,
Sarah