He gave me roses.
He listens to me.
He appologizes.
He calls me out when I am wrong.
He asks the tough questions.
He massages my back when it aches.
He lets me sleep in his lap.
He cares.
He loves me.
I love him too.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
The Sarah Project: Day 15
I'm not as emo anymore.
Scendence at the State Fair was really good. I'm still wearing their hoodie. And I would like them if my boyfriend wasn't the bassist, but honestly he is so now I have an excuse, and a ride, to attend shows. The band is really nice. They are all very very different people though, which is also great.
About my life, its a little insane right now. I used to find solace in my education. It was a place I ran to, because I knew that in my own little world, I could do something that was about myself, not my family. Something not about trying to be the mediator. Well, as valedictorian of my high-school class, I put so much pressure on myself, I forgot that their were other things that I needed to do to stay healthy. To be myself. So now, that college is super intense, all I want is another way to define myself, to be. And I know that it can't be about taking care of anyone but myself. So I'm still looking.
Things I Enjoy:
1. Watching certian television series. My favorites are True Blood and Brothers & Sisters.
2. Dresses.
3. Hanging with certian people - other people that are my friends, or were, just annoy me now.
4. Writing.
5. Reading for pleasure (not school). Penelope Fitzgerald is good and if you want to win my heart - I love Sarah Dessen novels.
6. Cooking/Baking/Chocolate Making
7. Arts and Crafts - card making, embossing, scrapbooking, sewing, all crafts
Things that I Still Need:
1. A Best Friend who understands me for who I am
2. A Career
3. A New Back
4. A Place of my Own
5. A favorite Sport
6. Something to Define Myself further with
Sincerely,
Sarah
Scendence at the State Fair was really good. I'm still wearing their hoodie. And I would like them if my boyfriend wasn't the bassist, but honestly he is so now I have an excuse, and a ride, to attend shows. The band is really nice. They are all very very different people though, which is also great.
About my life, its a little insane right now. I used to find solace in my education. It was a place I ran to, because I knew that in my own little world, I could do something that was about myself, not my family. Something not about trying to be the mediator. Well, as valedictorian of my high-school class, I put so much pressure on myself, I forgot that their were other things that I needed to do to stay healthy. To be myself. So now, that college is super intense, all I want is another way to define myself, to be. And I know that it can't be about taking care of anyone but myself. So I'm still looking.
Things I Enjoy:
1. Watching certian television series. My favorites are True Blood and Brothers & Sisters.
2. Dresses.
3. Hanging with certian people - other people that are my friends, or were, just annoy me now.
4. Writing.
5. Reading for pleasure (not school). Penelope Fitzgerald is good and if you want to win my heart - I love Sarah Dessen novels.
6. Cooking/Baking/Chocolate Making
7. Arts and Crafts - card making, embossing, scrapbooking, sewing, all crafts
Things that I Still Need:
1. A Best Friend who understands me for who I am
2. A Career
3. A New Back
4. A Place of my Own
5. A favorite Sport
6. Something to Define Myself further with
Sincerely,
Sarah
Thursday, September 24, 2009
The Sarah Project: Day 14
I wish I held you in my hand
Sparkly, Glittery, on the mend,
But instead you hold me in your grip
At the will of your quivering lip.
I've been thinking in this time I set aside
Do I really want to sacrifice my pride
Sometimes you're crazy and you're right
Why is this a single-souled formidable fight?
I wish that I didn't have to doubt,
But am I taking the valorous route?
You never keep me in the loop
Are we together for the physical whoop?
I wish that I could talk to you,
But somehow I'm just too blue.
I haven't breathed in awhile,
I think some time will be a trial,
Where under your busy facade,
I can take a trip to my own aid,
And when I'm ready to talk about a "we" -
Then, then we'll see.
Sparkly, Glittery, on the mend,
But instead you hold me in your grip
At the will of your quivering lip.
I've been thinking in this time I set aside
Do I really want to sacrifice my pride
Sometimes you're crazy and you're right
Why is this a single-souled formidable fight?
I wish that I didn't have to doubt,
But am I taking the valorous route?
You never keep me in the loop
Are we together for the physical whoop?
I wish that I could talk to you,
But somehow I'm just too blue.
I haven't breathed in awhile,
I think some time will be a trial,
Where under your busy facade,
I can take a trip to my own aid,
And when I'm ready to talk about a "we" -
Then, then we'll see.
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