It seems that I am driven to write when my mood wavers. Perhaps that is why I haven't posted in so long. I wanted to pretend as though I was happier than the moon. My life for all respective reasons is amazing - I am pursuing a doctorate degree and getting along alright, I have an apartment in a wonderful part of town, with all the ammenities (dishwasher, washer and dryer), a boyfriend that cares and is kind, parents that love me and miss me, and friends that are far but so very close.
When people find out about some of my more conservative choices - abstinence, being drug-free, being committed to my schoolwork and career - they tell me that I need more life experiences. I sometimes question my own choices and consider regretting my decisions. The truth is that I've had just too many life experiences. I am proud of who I am. Or I should be, even if I don't always expresss it.
I wish I had more to say.
Sincerely,
Sarah Buterblog
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
TSP 52: Whoops almost a whole month
Hi there -
So I didn't dedicate myself to this very strongly did I? Its been a month since my last post. It seems that I come to this place when I feel reflective about my life and in a mood to make decisions about my future. Usually that is not the best times for me either - in the middle of exams and late at night, or when I feel home sick, either way I end up writing something depressing.
I am a bit home sick. I got some news today - just more family drama - but it shook me up a little bit. I'm scared that things will change for the worse. And I miss my mom. But enough of the depressing - my life is so rich, so full of love. I am truly blessed. Blessed to be easily fulfilling my dreams, to be in Seattle, to have the best friends, both near and very far, that I could have ever hoped for.
But enough of my sad and happy drama - It seems like I have one person checking this blog every once and awhile and I owe it to you - that one person - to say something interesting. What do you want to know? Ask me anything. If I don't know, I'll figure it out.
Sincerely,
Sarah Buterblog
So I didn't dedicate myself to this very strongly did I? Its been a month since my last post. It seems that I come to this place when I feel reflective about my life and in a mood to make decisions about my future. Usually that is not the best times for me either - in the middle of exams and late at night, or when I feel home sick, either way I end up writing something depressing.
I am a bit home sick. I got some news today - just more family drama - but it shook me up a little bit. I'm scared that things will change for the worse. And I miss my mom. But enough of the depressing - my life is so rich, so full of love. I am truly blessed. Blessed to be easily fulfilling my dreams, to be in Seattle, to have the best friends, both near and very far, that I could have ever hoped for.
But enough of my sad and happy drama - It seems like I have one person checking this blog every once and awhile and I owe it to you - that one person - to say something interesting. What do you want to know? Ask me anything. If I don't know, I'll figure it out.
Sincerely,
Sarah Buterblog
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
TSP: 51 Just Thinking for a Moment
I am ready for a career. I have 8 quarters and one year of rotations before I can take the exam to become a pharmacist. That's 1600 hours of experience and roughly three and a half years of concentrated effort.
As I've gotten older my wants have changed considerably. I used to want to buy my grandparent's house and raise alpaca, making a living selling stuff and taking pictures while traveling. In elementary school, I wanted to be the President of the United States or as my dad reminds me occasionally, "a pediatric veterinarian for chimpanzees and armadillos. Chimpanzees because they were my favorite and armadillos because they were underrepresented." I was a strange kid, but that's not my point.
My point is that now, I want what a lot of people want. I want to make a small difference - to have a successful career, making small positive changes in my field. To marry someone that I love and build a strong loving family network. I still want to travel, but the idea of a permanent house somewhere, with a fireplace, a dog, (possibly a ceramics studio), is even more appealing. My dreams have become more ~ real.
I hope that I didn't grow up too much.
~ Sarah
As I've gotten older my wants have changed considerably. I used to want to buy my grandparent's house and raise alpaca, making a living selling stuff and taking pictures while traveling. In elementary school, I wanted to be the President of the United States or as my dad reminds me occasionally, "a pediatric veterinarian for chimpanzees and armadillos. Chimpanzees because they were my favorite and armadillos because they were underrepresented." I was a strange kid, but that's not my point.
My point is that now, I want what a lot of people want. I want to make a small difference - to have a successful career, making small positive changes in my field. To marry someone that I love and build a strong loving family network. I still want to travel, but the idea of a permanent house somewhere, with a fireplace, a dog, (possibly a ceramics studio), is even more appealing. My dreams have become more ~ real.
I hope that I didn't grow up too much.
~ Sarah
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